The Big Stir

There is this idea floating around in my head that says, live your life in a question. I have heard this phrase many times, in a yoga class, or reading something about how to live our life. I always wondered about it. It means that we should not search for the answers, we let the question dissolve into our daily routine. Maybe we just ask for something, and then we let it be. When we are ready, it will come to us.

But I also took that meaning to impact how I create. I know that sometimes I have an idea in my head and then I try to follow it to a T, but when I let it loosely just flow in my mind, I do not take any particular direction, sometimes, something beautiful and unexpected unfolds, sometimes, I can surprise myself. And that is what I call painting in a question. But even that, that meaning could be a little disorienting, because just the word question would almost demand an answer, it’s a really tricky place to reside in.

And the other day I had a premonition. What if it was not a question, but faith. What if it was much more subtle than that, and I let all my expectation just dissolve into a loving heart of believing that everything will just turn out ok, if I step into whatever I do wholeheartedly, and patiently, instead of rushing for the outcome? With prayer, maybe down on my knees, it does not mean that I give up all my will, but I let go of all my barriers to live and create. And That is not easy for me.

Faith TheBigStir

5 thoughts on “The Big Stir

  1. I love how you are so open with your heart, sharing so much with your words and your art. I find you to be an amazing “human becoming”. The world is a better place having you in it, sharing all that you are. I agree with you…”See it and it will be” is my way of thinking and living, I offer it up to the universe and try to live with out any expectations. I truly difficult task in this day and age but one that feels right to me! Love “The Big Stir”. Peace!


  2. Love your thoughts on this, Renata!
    For me, living in the question has to do with allowance and presence. Being in allowance of everything, and with that, finding the places where the mind wants to put up resistance and/or control and breathing into that to soften and open it.

    My mind also loves to automatically go to finding an answer when the word “question” is even suggested. It’s what minds do! 🙂 However, once we are in search of an answer, we are out of presence AND allowance again. Just like my mind likes to go to “everything will work out fine” when I hear the word “faith” (it does mean different things to different people though) and that’s not really allowance or presence for me either. That’s just allowing the good stuff, but not being so much in allowance of whatever may come forth!

    One of the questions that has really opened up things for me though when the mind tries to get in the way is “what if it’s not what I think it is?” Of course, the mind then goes to, “well, if it’s not that, what is it then? It must be that then!” and I answer with “what if it’s not that either?”
    And in the beginning when I started this practice, this could go on for a while (my mind is quite stubborn!) until I finally got to a place where I realized that my mind would only ever be able to come up with answers that were based on my 40-odd years of experience in this world, but nothing outside of it.

    The mind can’t possibly grasp infinite. The concept, yes, but not the real thing. Getting to the point (at least some of the time!) of where I realize that “if I can understand it, that’s not it” and allowing that to open up …. that is when I feel that true “living in the question” or allowance, or presence, whatever we want to call it, really begins. And it is an amazing place of infinite possibilities!


    • Thank you Birgit so much for your thoughts, that are all very wonderful and valid meditations on the subject. I think we all struggle with this, because we might have come to realize that making solid commitments to anything can be limiting, even though they help us survive. Living in the question can be ever unfolding, but as you said, the mind can not embrace infinity, it can be little scary ❤


      • Oh, for sure. It can be a LOT scary! Letting go of control (even though it is somewhat of an illusion) is one of the scariest things to do, sometimes!
        It’s quite the journey, really! I find I come up against all the control issues in art all the time and it’s quite scary for me to let that go. But it’s slowly happening and not in small part due to your Expressions course!
        For me, the combination of a particularly “freeing” conscious breathing workshop week and divine timing in my purchasing your Expressions workshop, which provided me with the opportunity of watching you paint for hours, has allowed all kinds of things to burst forth and for limits to be overcome! And I haven’t even really started with the full course! Who knows how many more wonderful things will unfold from it!! THANK YOU so much! ❤

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